Yesterday was Mother’s Day in the US, so this post is a celebration to all of the mothers out there. And also is a reflection on motherhood, from a non-mom.
A celebration
First, I texted my mom “Happy Mommy’s Day!”
Then, I wrote her a haiku:
You are my Pie Pie
Thank you for all that you do
Happy Mommy’s Day!
I gifted her Teddy Swims CDs.
And I gave her my air purifier that I never use lol
Then we visited with family in Jersey, celebrating all of the mothers in our lives. It was a lovely day spent together.
To all the mom’s out there— I truly don’t know how you do it. It’s amazing to see, and you don’t get enough credit and appreciation. Thank you for raising us and raising us up!
A reflection
Maybe once upon a time I thought I’d be a mom someday. Baby names I liked were picked out. But at this point, that time has passed me by. At least to be a mother to a biological, human baby.
And honestly, I am okay with it. I don’t think I was made for that. Or cut out for it.
Sometimes I do feel sad about it. Sometimes I feel like a freak. I wonder what if. I’m afraid people think I’m weird or selfish. That they talk about me in regards to my non-mom status. And not in a good way. And maybe they do. And I probably am selfish. But I also didn’t want to do something just because I may regret it someday. That is not a reason to have a child. I don’t want to feel bad about this decision. And for the most part, I don’t.
I still plan to be a fur-mama someday…maybe I’ll be a step-mother someday. Or a mother figure to someone at some point. We’ll see. Time will tell.
Thank you to all the mamas!
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